Can’t stop this thinking
I went out for a walk last night
Do people really think that it’s right
Oh how they lie

And I don’t see myself with everybody else like you
Cause somehow things just don’t seem right

We’re living in an empty world, something that you’re used to
We’re living in an empty world, something that you’re used to
We’re living in an empty world, something that you’re used to
We’re living in an empty world, something that you’re used to

You people know how I feel
We’re living in a dream that seems real
Living life with such an appeal
We never seek the truth
And my heart it breaks in two if you people only knew
I just fear that we’ve crucified ourselves
And the trend setters only get worse, I can’t take any more of this curse
We’re living this life to get burned we’ll never learn
Some things must be earned

And I don’t see myself with everybody else like you
Cause somehow things just don’t seem right

We’re living in an empty world, something that you’re used to
We’re living in an empty world, something that you’re used to
We’re living in an empty world, something that you’re used to
We’re living in an empty world, something that you’re used to

Time pass the casket is coming in fast
Just a year before a year ago I was sleeping in class
And I never paid attention to these hours of glass
And now it’s painfully so clear to me each hour that passes
As I scratch and scrounging for this minimum cash I’m getting older growing colder
find it harder to laugh find it harder to smile it’s been a while since last
And I know I’m reaping what I’ve sewn for deeds in the past
and I know I couldn’t see past all the wealth I amassed
and I know I never thanked you for these blessings you cast
and I know I never thought of you when good times were vast
I was stupid and I’m sorry if I could I’d go back
And now they tell me you’re the one to see when feeling like trash
And my heart and soul keep hurting more each breath that I gasp
So now I come to you I’m stumbling and humbully ask
Lord, God help me cause I’m loosing my grasp I need help

This life, this life used to make me smile
Now I see all the pain it hides
No I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe

This life, this life used to make me smile
Now I see all the pain it hides
No I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe

-x-

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Most times I’m the most strong I’m the rock the spot you get support from
Mostly cope with hopes that’s been rolled on
And when you’re low you know that you can hold on me
In a heartbeat I can be there the fears and tears you cry I’m by your side so dry your eyes
And let me provide peace of mind in time I know you’ll be fine
And if it’s heartbreak I can take some off your plate replace the lies and hate with smiles of faith
You fall deep I could fall with you. The dark is a familiar place you’re lost I can help you escape
It was my fate (pain) so that I can relate
Now when I can’t even stand I can handle the weight
I’ll be your shoulder for as long as I can but where’s the shoulder for my shoulder when I can’t

I will be the one you can count on the most
When the road is dark you know I’ll bare the load
You never see the days when I fall down to my knees
None of you will know that sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on

Sometimes it’s really hard to be this invincible figure you figure me to be
Cause I can feel the pain and when I’m cut I bleed mostly inside but lord knows I cry
I don’t lie I just keep it bottled inside I meet your eyes with a smile
and you think I’m lion but I’m alive cause I can feel like you can feel with emotions
still though it don’t show it’s real.
Conceal when my heart cries fall apart in the dark at the spot where my thoughts lie
I thought I was as strong as they come, I thought I was numb
my thoughts send my heart over run as I wonder
Can I make it through and is the one coming soon that’s gonna hold me console me
Or was this something meant to be and a shoulder for a shoulder wasn’t meant for me

I will be the one you can count on the most
When the road is dark you know I’ll bare the load
You never see the days when I fall down to my knees
None of you will know that sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on

-x-

~my favorite song~

Close my eyes tonight
My conscience by my side
It’s hard to live this life
Where truth begins with lies

So I won’t sleep… I will stay awake
Cause if I dream… they will/then they’ll take their claim
Oh I try… oh I try to fight
To stay awake tonight
Palestine, Palestine, Palestine… always on my mind

Truth is where desire ends
A meaning to an end
I search myself all the time
To change what’s in my mind

So I won’t sleep… I will stay awake
Cause if I dream… they will/then they’ll take their claim
Oh I try… oh I try to fight
To stay awake tonight
Palestine, Palestine, Palestine… always on my mind

I can’t find peace cause it’s hard to release what we’ve done
What we could be if we’d only see what we’ve become
It’s unbelievable it’s undeniable ohhhh!
I want free, won’t sleep, won’t dream, won’t eat, won’t breathe
Won’t give in to what’s building inside of me

(Guitar solo)

Close my eyes tonight
My conscience by my side

-x-

~my favorite song~

(Chorus)

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the valley of the King
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels

Sing the praises of my Lord so far above
As I move poetically with the struggle I fall in love
I look to the left I look to the right and all I gaze upon
Reveals the source of flowers rainbows and the dew at dawn
Some see before and some see in and some see after
I let my sight pierce the chains and see the master

(Chorus)

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the Valley of the King
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels sing

So many times in my life I ask myself the question
What got me brought me into all this mess I’m swimming in
But pain is not and neither harm in the pool of bliss
So slap me with your hand or kiss me with your softest kiss
Tell me that you love me or that you don’t like me now
Tell me you invite me or that you don’t want me around
I won’t cry over a world that can’t change my life
I’ll put my money on what lies ahead in paradise

(Chorus)

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the Valley of the King
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels sing

I try to do right and love my wife and trade and pray and talk
I can be anywhere doing anything and I’m mindful of God
I’m pleased in good and happy in harm and now I realize that I already live in a land called paradise

(Chorus)

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the valley of the king
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels

I wanna live in a land called paradise
I wanna go to the valley of the king
I wanna live in a land called paradise
Wanna see the birds fly and I wanna hear the angels sing

~my favorite song~

He was a soldier who’d only been married two or three years ago
And he put his hands on her knees that night and he said I gotta go
She said why would you leave this home and me; I thought I was your baby girl
And he wiped away the tears from her eyes and said they’re sending me to save the world
And you know I love you and I pray to God that he’ll join us once again
But now its time for this simple man to be one of the few good men

(Chorus)
Cause baby I’m a soldier and I hear those trumpets calling again
And our kings and queens are saying this is a fight we must win
For truth and justice and for the way we live our life
And baby I’m a soldier in front of God I swore I would fight

Across the ocean and miles away there stood another man
Eighteen years, hugging his mama saying I’ll defend this land
Mama held her baby and cried and clutched him telling him not to leave
She said what will I do without my baby boy; son I’m begging you please
He said I love you mama but duty calls; I’ll write you everyday
She said I lost your daddy like this and I don’t wanna lose you this way

(Chorus)
But Mama I’m a soldier and I hear those trumpets calling again
And our kings and queens are saying this is a fight we must win
For truth and justice and for the way we live our life
And Mama I’m a soldier in front of God I swore I would fight

Well the battle raged and shots rang out the two men fell to the ground
And they looked into the eyes of each other and were shocked at what they found

One man saw the mother of the other in that young mans eyes
And the other man saw the crying and screams of the other mans beloved wife
And the two men stared across that smoky field and whispered to each other
Maybe you weren’t the demon they said maybe you were really my brother
But I’m glad we’re passing cause I don’t think that I could forgive myself
For fighting you but maybe God will and we can live together in bliss

(Chorus)
Cause Ladies we were soldiers and we heard those trumpets calling again
And tell the kings and queens that sometimes there are fights no one wins
But we know for sure that there’s evil out there we must fight
But please be sure that this is one of those times
And please be sure to remember my mama and wife
And please be sure to think of my brother on the other side.

~my favorite song~


Every single day someone is born and some dies
It wasn’t long ago my uncle passed and my little niece came to life
I get to thinking about my time and go and it won’t be long from now
I shiver inside at the chance that I might leave a life untouched by a vow

(Chorus)

And I believe tonight is the night that I decide
That I get busy living and I get ready to die
So that when the fateful day does come
When I’m six feet in the ground
The poor and the weak and the orphan and meek will miss having me around

When I pass I don’t want to leave a life of regret
So I give rise to change today by trying not to forget
That pleasures do pass and sunrises end and stars do fade away
But it’s love and it’s virtue and honor and truth that remain for all days

(Chorus)

And I believe tonight is the night that I decide
That I get busy living and I get ready to die
So that when the fateful day does come
When I’m six feet in the ground
The poor and the weak and the orphan and meek will miss having me around

(Bridge)

I want that final breath to be the sweetest of all
And it will be with certainty if I answer the call
To help all those in need and decipher the meaning of life
Cause the seekers of truth they fear not death any more than they fear life

(Chorus)

And I believe tonight is the night that I decide
That I get busy living and I get ready to die
So that when the fateful day does come
When I’m six feet in the ground
The poor and the weak and the orphan and meek will miss having me around

Dust is my bed, embraces me and it’s my cover now
The sand surrounds me even behind my back
And the grave tells a dankness of my affliction
And the brightness draws a line……………
Where is my family’s love? They sold my loyalty!
And where is my group of friends? They left my brotherhood!
Where is the bliss of money? It’s behind my back now
And my name (reputation) where is it shine between praises
This is my end and this is my bed

And love farewells its longing and my elegizing cried
And the tears went dry after crying
And the universe became narrow and so is my space
And the grave became my ground and sky
This is my end and this is my bed

Fear fills my estrangement and sadness is my illness
I expect firmness and I swear it’s my cure
And for Allah i pray faithfully, you are my hope
Allah! I desire heaven, to find bliss in it

And for Allah i pray faithfully, you are my hope
Allah! I desire heaven, to find bliss in it

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প্রচন্ড মন খারাপ হলে সাধারণত এই গানটির কথা মনে পড়ে আমার... :(
মরে যেতে ইচ্ছা হয় যখন, তখন ভাবি কোন মুখে আমি আল্লাহর সামনে দাঁড়াবো.. কি আছে আমার! কি করেছি! ভাল লাগে না কিছুই । এই পুরো পৃথিবীটা অর্থহীন লাগে । অর্থহীন লাগে আমার জন্মটাও । আমার জন্ম না হলে কী এমন ক্ষতি হতো!
আল্লাহ, তুমি আমাকে একটি পাতা করলে না কেন? অথবা ঘাস? অথবা ফুল?
জীবনটা এমন কেন?
আল্লাহ, তুমি কেন আমাকে পরীক্ষায় ফেললে??? কেন?? কেন!!! তুমি জানতে না যে আমি পারবো না?!
অসহ্য!!!
অসহ্য আমি!!!
অসহ্য পৃথিবী!!!